|Me and my baby girl at the end of January (photo by my talented sister-in-law, Sheryl). She's grown a lot |
since this photo was taken, and I can hardly believe she'll be five months old in a few days!
When I wrote my last blog post on February 8th, I was so tired I could not think straight. Months and month of sleep deprivation (dating back to last summer, really) had taken its toll. A few times, I was so tired I could barely muster the energy to snap the baby's diaper ... I remember just standing over the changing table, waiting for Carl to come in and finish the diapering job. I even missed a physical therapy appointment because I was too tired to drive. I needed sleep badly, and if I didn't catch some ZZZZs soon I was going to lose it.
Good news -- I am doing much, much better! I still haven't had an uninterrupted night of rest, but we're getting there. Life is starting to feel normal again. A new normal, but normal nonetheless. Thanks a ton to those of you who chimed in on Facebook with great advice on helping my baby sleep. Especially fellow blogger One Fit Mom. Her advice was a complete game changer for us. Now, instead of a baby who stays up until midnight and wakes up every two hours to eat, I have a baby who goes down easily around 7:30pm and sleeps until 7:30am (with just two feedings during that 12-hour stretch). She even takes two fairly-predictable naps per day. What a relief.
Now that I am more rested, I'm able to see things a little more clearly. Especially my fitness ambitions. In short, I realized that my approach was a little off. I was way too eager. Even after my physical therapist told me to dial it way down, all I could think about was dialing it back up again. This didn't do anything for me other than leave me feeling frustrated and annoyed. I think I've finally moved beyond this stage, though. I spent the past several weeks focusing more on rest and nutrition and less on working out, and it seems to have payed off. And now, I feel healthy, I feel strong, I feel satisfied with the progress I've made toward achieving the goals I set at the beginning of February, and I'm excited to get back to a more consistent blogging schedule. Thanks (again) for sticking with me as I adjust to all the new things motherhood brings to my life!